Monday, March 23, 2009

Desperate FARM WIFE BLUES.....

Don't get me wrong, I'm SO THANKFUL to be a farmers wife. But, I'm allowed to have feelings too right? I'm going through a BLUE MOMENT.

I miss The Captain desperately when he is away at work flying airplanes 14 days each month. I get fairly lonely. Right now, I feel we are just passing in the night. Sometimes I pray for rain so he'll come inside-any other farmers wives do that?

Here's is the problem.

He changes from his pilot uniform into his farming clothes WAY TOO QUICKLY for me. He headed right out to do farm work as soon as he got home Friday. He was out on the tractor discing all day Saturday. We got to go to church as a family yesterday so that was good but he spent all day in town getting parts for something after church. Granted-he took 4 littles with him on one errand to look at baby bunnies and chicks so I could mop my ENORMOUS floor.
Wy Wy is farm, tractor, combine obsessed so he spends every waking moment with The Captain-work gloves on AT ALL TIMES.


God is ALL I REALLY NEED. I must remind myself at times like this when I get lonely-lonely for The Captain, lonely for a night out with friends-TRUST ME, I have plenty of kids surrounding me but it's not the same.

I must not listen to Satan-THE FATHER OF LIES. by feeling sorry for myself-I am playing right into his lies and games.

"and you have been given FULLNESS, in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority." Colossians 2:10

"Earth has NOTHING I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:25, 26

May you be encouraged today that HE is truly all you need.


Spike and Tuna Jones said...

I hear you... plan an inside date when the kids are in bed. it helps me! Even the planning creates anticipation.

Transformed said...

Amen mama! And our little ones sure need to lean this too--and we are their example! Keep running back to the Father's arms.

His Hands His Feet Today said...

Aw :( Praying for a few hours of just you two :)

Kristin said...

Jen: I don't know what it is to be a farmer's wife or a pilot's wife, but I do understand the loneliness! Praying that you are able to steal moments together and that in the passing you might feel God's arms around you!

Blessed Mom of 8 said...

Oh I totally can relate - little ones around are a blessing but no substitute for time alone with our spouses. I miss my husband too!

Praying you get all the time you both need to unite and be rejuvenated in His love together!


MyLinda said...

Sounds like a date night is in order or at least plans for one! My hubby isn't away like yours but sometimes I just need him all to myself!

Mary Ellen said...

Your feelings are totally understandable. We all have our blue moments. I'm having one myself. Stay strong. This too shall pass.

Melissa, Multi-Tasking Mama said...

You are absolutely allowed to have feelings :-) in fact I don't think we can stop ourselves- but kudos to you for remembering the only One that can truly meet our needs (even though hubbies are great to have around)

And little Wy Wy with the work gloves- too darn cute!

Linda B. said...

You've been Snarked! I enjoy reading your blog!

Joyful Mom said...

Oh so beautifully said! I love it--He is ALL we really need.

Yes, my hubby is a minister. Thanks for your sweet comment on my blog. You are a treasured friend.

Elle said...

Oh man---we have all felt this!!!
My husband coaches bball along with teaching for 4-5 months of the year he is gone all week and leaves before we wake and comes home when we're fast asleep...I only see him on the weekends! It's rough and I got lonely too.
I think the idea to PLAN an upcoming date night is great because even the planning of it helps!
Hang on girl!

Bobbie-Jo said...

Beautiful words, He is truly all we need. It's very comforting...

PamperingBeki said...

Jen, this is SO good!

Such a great reminder.

John Deere Mom said...

Before we had kids, I would get so lonely and bored when my hubby would race home from work, change into farm clothes, and work until 10, 11, 12 at night. Now? I don't mind it so much. It isn't as often anymore, but when he is out working all day, the kids and I just enjoy each other and have special mommy-only time.